September 1, 2009. Not a very good date this year, if you ask me. It was, in fact, my worst day ever.
Dad was diagnosed with a cluster of lumps in his throat. It was seriously freaking scary to hear it from someone you care so much holding back his tears at the other end of the line. All sorts of thoughts came and left, and sole reason they left my mind was that I psychoed myself into believing everything will be fine. I kept telling myself things will be okay and that I was so stupid for worrying so much and fearing the worst.
But honestly, when the diagnosis reached me, I didn't know what to do. I was 4-5 hours away from home and being a working person, so I couldn't leave for Penang just like that.
AND in addition to this issue, there was another personal issue I faced. And the fact that both surfaced at the SAME TIME didn't help. I was in a difficult situation. Dad's issue was obviously way more important but I was desperate to settle my personal issues there and then I seriously wasn't fully aware of how I handled things because I was so in dazed.
My tapao-ed dinner was barely touched. My eyes were swollen from all the crying.
Someone miles away happened to call and as much as I tried to be normal, I guess he saw it through. He was helpful. And he obviously cared a lot for me. You can actually tell how concerned one is from the way he said "Everything will be okay". I appreciate it so much.
One can seriously be so super holy when situations like this happens. Me, for instance. I think I need to start attending church services.
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The diagnosis results were out several hours ago. And it was GOOD NEWS! So relieved. My heart almost dropped when I heard dad's shaky voice but luckily he managed to utter "Good news" otherwise I confirm will cry in office. Thank God!
Apparently, the cluster of lumps are harmless for now so it's advisable to remove it plus his thyroid. And without his thyroid, dad has to be on medication throughout his entire life ady. But I don't think he minds.
Regarding the personal issue, it was kind of resolved that night itself. But the damage is done, there's nth much I can do but to earn it back.
8 comments:
"The sun always shines bright after a rainy day."
May you have less 'teary' days in your life.
glad to hear the good news regarding your dad's thyroid glands. i think your dad managed to catch it early, or perhaps the doctor did the job efficiently.
on medications, nowadays the medications are at the advanced level already, so it is safe. :)
take care erica.:)
Probably just goitres la.. its not exactly harmful.. but then again, not exactly harmless ;)
thanks all =) although it's nothing serious now, it was one hell of a night my family and i had to go through.
ur prayers were answered. Thank god :)
yes erica, everything will be ok... if ur ever in need just look for your guardian angel
hey, cheer up k! take care!
hellooo....still remember me?? hehe...anyways...PRaise God all's fine...cheer up and leave the rest to God...=) hugz!
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